To my wonderful followers...

I am "moving" to Tumblr. I might post here once in awhile, but I am going to use Tumblr more often now. Deathisinevitable.tumblr.com

Why?

Why do good people die young?

For the past 3 nights, I have endured nightmares that leave me awake and unable to sleep again. During this time that I'm awake, I think about the world around me.

And then, I cry.......

If there is a god, he is a cruel, sick being. There's no way that he can be considered a "loving, caring god" when he kills off young, innocent people. Think about it. Was there ever somebody in your life that didn't deserve to die, but still did?

Now think about this: was there ever a person who deserved to die, but ended up living a long, healthy life?

I personally don't believe in god..... I have my own beliefs which follow simple facts.

When your heart stops, the brain stays active for 7 minutes afterwards. When you dream your longest possible dream, which seems to take the entire night, and then some, you're really only seeing about 20 seconds worth of things before you wake up.

My friend told me about Lucid Dreaming. It's the art of controlling what happens in your dreams. If you take all these things and put them together, you can simulate your own afterlife.

7 minutes.... It will seem like a few days, but by then you will be lost in it's splendor. I know you can and will control your "afterdream", and I hope that you make it worthwile.

Thank you and goodnight.

Happy Tears... And Sad ones too....

I am crying as I type this.

I have truly amazing friends. Like actually. I love all of you, and never forget that.

Today my best friend told me they were dieing slowly. They would live only till thier 30's..... And I started crying then.....

Then later on a friend posted something I would love to share with you. It is titled Happy Tears, and makes me cry whenever I read it.

"So today , really sucked.

Everything was going wrong .
Literally everything .

I always have this friend I talk to .
His name is Cory .
He is really amazing .

It is not often that I get upset .
But today I did .

I told Cory this .
And explained what happened .

Then I showed him something that I told one of the people.
It was a direct quote of what he told me to say .

Then this conversation took place .

Cory ; You just made my life
Me ; I am glad .
Cory ; You always manage to make me happy , no matter how sad I am .

At the sight of these words , I started crying my eyes out . If I could make every person I meet say those words , my life goal would be truly complete.

-And so the conversation continued .
Me ; You have absolutley no idea how happy those 13 words just made me .
Cory ; =] True facts
Me ; You made me cry happy tears .
Cory ; You are my sunshine , my only sunshine ... You make me happy when skies are grey ...
Me ; You 'll never know dear , how much I Love you . So please don 't take my sunshine away .



I guess theres just one thing I am trying to get across here ,


which is that Cory Green , yeah , he is a truly amazing person .
I 've confided in him things that I have never told anyone else .

I trust him above all people.
I am very proud to be able to say he is my best friend."

No matter when I read that, I choke up... It's the nicest thing anyone has done for me.

I know I promised to "disappear" for two years, but this needed to be said. I want all of you who read this to know that if you find someone who truly makes you happy, keep them as close as possible. I mean this. No matter what happens.

Thank you, and Goodnight.